The "right time"

Oh man, is this convicting or what?

I love, and am so inspired by, quotes that basically are just telling you that being yourself is the most important, and that your life is what you make it. I am always so grateful for the reminder that we can create the life we really desire to have. It usually means more work, sacrifice and courage than people are willing to put in to it, but sometimes it just boils down to confidence. "Am I really ______ (insert awesome adjective of your choice) to DO THAT?! And even people who are mostly pretty self-assured and confident can struggle with putting themselves out there, the why of that I'm not entirely sure...but I can attest to it because I fall in that category. 

My largest struggle as an entrepreneur is not at all anything to do with the actual business. The business side, the customer service, the creating and doing the work- I love all of that! I struggle with TALKING ABOUT WHAT I DO! I'm not even talking about advertising, I'm talking about...I don't market myself. I don't broadcast what I'm doing, I don't talk about what I've accomplished or put myself out there, and I think it all boils down to an inner fear I have of coming across as "braggy" or annoying. If people don't specifically ask me about it, I don't say a word about it. 

I think this also stems from a fear of rejection. I don't want to give people a reason to not like or support me. It's almost like, if they don't know about it, they can't let me down by not being supportive or encouraging. I realize this isn't very logical, and it's doing myself a disservice as well as not giving enough credit to the people in my life. For me, I like to know every little thing my friends are doing, what they're in to, especially if they are selling something or embarking on a project- I want to be as encouraging and supportive as possible! So, why don't I let them do the same for me? 

Well, now I am. I'm removing those borders I've created, keeping everything so separate- only posting business stuff on one account, personal on another. Talking about business stuff with certain people and not at all with others, or not broadcasting goals or wins or successes because of fear that people will think I'm bragging or showboating. All of that is gone! Or, will be, I think it's something I have to steady work on, but I'm committed! I want to stop holding myself back in things because of a fear of putting myself out there, so there's no better time than right now, right?

So that's one thing I'm choosing to spend more time on in this new year. I would love to hear something you want to spend more time on in 2021!